I'm obsessed with crashing into you

Earlier this evening my boyfriend sent me a link to a picture of a naked girl that he said looked like me. I was immediately shocked and couldn’t stop crying because of the fat girl he sent me a picture of. I couldn’t believe that i looked anything like that. I was absolutely mortified and just sat staring at the picture crying for half an hour. Don’t get me wrong, i know i am fat, but the picture i have of myself is so far from what i have in my head it’s not funny. The reality is though that i haven’t been able to bring myself to look at myself naked in the mirror for at least 15 years. In fact, i try to look at myself in the mirror as little as possible because i am so disgusted with what i see. But as of tomorrow i am making a promise to myself to get on top of things. So the goal for the foreseeable future is:

- get back on Weight Watchers 

- stop coating everything in cheese

- stop sitting on the fucking internet

- lose 10 kilos

If anyone has any weight loss gems they would like to share with me i would love to hear them. Quite frankly i am going to need all the help i can get. Also, does anyone want to buy me a gym membership? I am a povo bitch.